I keep thinking I’ll get myself together any day now, but I can’t seem to get around to it. I’m the mom who lets us run out of toothpaste and toilet paper, the pastor’s wife who can be a real grouch, and the woman who’s been on a low-carb diet for four months, only to lose a whopping 2.37 pounds due to constant cheating and binging on nuts. I’m that lady you’ve met four times, and I really did like you, but I’m so sorry I still can’t remember your name due to my attention deficit.
Seriously, I might have real problems if I were trying to derive a positive self-worth from having it all together. I know God made me fearfully and wonderfully, but I don’t feel so amazing when I pare down my to-do list to three items a week, for the sake of productivity, and on Friday I sneak a look at the list, only to realize I haven’t done one of those things. Not a one.
Some days I rock. Other days, not so much.
Some days I feel like the best mom in the world. Other days, I blow up at my daughter or forget to return my son’s phone call.
Sometimes I’m a great wife. Other times, I practically ignore my dear husband when he comes through the door.
Despite my desire to live out my faith, my best efforts fall short. On any given day, my mood morphs from joyful to cranky. I swing back and forth between servant and drill sergeant. My faith falters in the face of challenge. My mood, behavior, and outlook change constantly!
Only one thing about me never changes: I have Christ in me.
I may not have it all together, but I do have Jesus. He’s the truest, best hope of glory I have.
If you’ve put your faith in Him, you have Jesus in you too. Let’s step off the treadmill of looking to ourselves and look to Christ instead. We can wallow in our weaknesses or we can welcome Christ into our thoughts.
I’m choosing to stand on 4 truths today.
1. I’m forgiven.
Even when I fail, in Christ I’m forgiven. When God looks at me, He sees the blood shed for my sin and the righteousness of His Son.
2. I’m never alone.
No matter how much I mess up, Jesus isn’t going anywhere. He’ll never leave me.
3. I’m growing.
I’m not yet the person I want to be, but He’s changing me. I have the hope that Christ will complete the good work He began in me.
4. I can do all things through Him.
On hard days, it helps to remember Christ’s power inside me. I may not feel it, but His strength rests on my weakness. With the same power that raised Jesus from the dead living in me, I can make it through today.
Even on days when I can’t seem to get myself together, I’ve still got one powerful thing going for me: Christ lives in me. I’m depending on Him, not on myself.
Will you join me? Let’s proclaim Him, not ourselves.